New Blog

Well my other blog is just an ongoing record of my daily activities. It's also my public blog (more public than this one will be anyway) so sometimes I feel like I can't state all my opinions or true feelings.

So here it goes I suppose.

Everything is pretty good for me right now. I'm going to Australia this summer like I've always dreamed of doing, I get to experience life as an independent individual, and I get to pursue my passion for graphic design. I have a good paying job, my parents are treating me better, I'm a lot more confident. Yet last night I was laying on the couch and suddenly became extremely anxious. I felt so anxious so quickly which caused me to curl up in a ball and just start crying. I'm terrified of certain aspects of my future. For example, I HATE office work. I hate sitting in an office and doing meaningless shit. I also hate working a 9-5 schedule. Both times I've had an office job I've become completely miserable. But right now I can't seem to think of anyway to avoid that and still be a successful person. At one point I thought I'd start my own business because you have complete control over your hours and such. But after working for someone who owns his own business I see how much it's consumed him and his family. I'm not always worried about this, as I said I'm really happy and positive for the most part, but this anxious feeling just looms over my head and doesn't seem to go away.

That's all for now.