Raconteur

I feel like I don't talk intelligently. Well in certain situations I do, but in others I feel like my mouth is a waterfall of "likes" and "omgs" and "ignorant crap." It's sort of embarassing really. It seems to happen when I'm in a new environment or meeting new people, which is probably the worst time for it to occur considering I'm making first impressions.

I also sometimes feel like I am a complete idiot with no culture or class. I was asked yesterday what the last five books I read were and I realized that I haven't read in over half a year. It's sad to me because I used to read so much and now I can't even name five books I have read recently. I couldn't even answer the question "who is your favorite author?" Ayn Rand was blocking any decent authors name in my brain, and to say Ayn Rand would be extremely cliche. I can't even say who my favorite artist is. I'm probably just being too self conscious as usual, but I hate feeling ignorant and unintelligent.